Fictional Character

HAVING ULTICRUSH ON A F-FI-FIC-TIONAL CHARACTER

This sucks. 

The feeling sucks. 

The feeling of not having any choices sucks.

I get hurt everytime people pairs him and another character. 

Specially the fact that I'll never be with him. 

People won't understand me. For them, he's just an anime character. 

For me, he's more than that.

I know I'm crazy, but this is crazier. Everytime I walk my way to school, I always think of him. At night,  I wonder if he cries himself for what happened. I  wanna know the reason of his attitude. People say he's like Kristene Stewart for having no emotions. But I believe he has a gigantic reason. I've only read 3 chapters of his past but, it made me cry. Even though it's BITIN (on-going pa siya), he's past made him have more of my respect.

He might not have a heart but, he has one. He's just hiding it.

sh*t, now I'm crying because a flashback when he gave a guy a badge owned by his friend. Specially the part where he have to decide to throw away...Petra's body...it--it's just...he treasures life more than death. It's---undescribable. I can't think properly now. I guess I'll just end this now.

Levi Revaille from Shigenki no Kyojin is mine by the way. 

HELEN's CLASSIFICATION OF CRUSHEEs

Crushee - ang pinag-ka-crush-an

Crusher - ang nagka-ka-crush

Ito yung pagkaka-classify ko ng mga crush. This all base on my POV.

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AWKWARD
-Kapatid ng Bestfriend mo.
-Kaibigan ng kapatid mo.
-kaklase mo
-best friend
-delivery boy
-kapitbahay nyo
-crush ng bespren mo
-trabahador (halimbawa yung plumber ng school nyo)
-malaki ang age gap
-if babae ka, mas bata sayo
-napakataba niya tas ang payat mo or vice versa
-lalaking way too shorter than you


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BAWAL
-Jowabells ng kaibigan mo
-taong pinagbawalan sayo ng magulang mo.
-subject teacher
-Levi Heichou at Killua Zoldyck (dahil akin lang sila :-P)
-trabahador nyo
-tamad, bagsak ang grades at kung ano pang ayaw ng lipunan.
-taken
-mukhang taong grassa + attitude of adik sa illegal drugs
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LessHOPE
-baklang lalake
-soccerplayer
-emo
-campus hearthrob
-Valedictorian/Salututorian
-yung nakatira malayo sa inyo tas hindi rin kayo classmates nor schoolmates
-otaku
-taong alam ng buong campus/classroom na may mahal/crush nang iba.
-all-time fan
-taong nabully mo noon
-ayaw mo pero crush mo
-it's complicated

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HOPELESS
-famous celebrity
-fictional character
-indie celeb na ikaw lang nakakakilala
-model, artista etc
-universal crushes
-taong perfect
-yung lalaking ang gwapo at nakakaaliw pero off-limits kasi magiging pari daw siya
-social media crush
-one-day-stand crush

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UNCLASSIFIED
-player/badboy
-taong mainit ang dugo mo
-hindi mo type
-tinutulungan ka/mo
-anak ng teacher mo
-mga taong isang beses mo lang nakita
-nerd
-bullied
-nice guy
-taong ngayon mo lang nakita ulit after 100 years
-bully mo
-extended guy/girl in your circle of friends na lagi mong napapansin
-malanding business crush

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Did I miss something? Comment mo lang.

Types Of Crushes

Lahat tayo may crush. Pero iba-iba kaya naisipan kong gumawa ng post about it.

(Ang hirap, nagsearch pa ako online)

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---------CELEBRITY CRUSH-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Sila yung taong baliw na baliw ka ngunit napakaimpossible nyang abutin.
Dahil:

~Artista/Model/Singer/Dancer etc siya.
~Dahil sa trabaho niya.
~Hindi ka niya kilala.
~Ang layo ng kung saang siya (or kung saan siya nakatira) mula sa inyo.
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---------ONLINE/FOUND-IN-SOCIAL-MEDIA TYPE OF CRUSH--------------------------------------------

Sila yung lalaking hindi mo pa nakilala sa personal, pero dahil sa mga kaibigan mong ni-re-
retweet ang mga posts nya o pictures niya. O di kaya naman ay pina-plug siya, kaya ayan
napapanaginipan mo syang nagkita daw daw kayo. 

Nakikita sa tumblr, facebook, instagram, wattpad, twitter at kung anong social media pa yan.

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---------PHONE NI YETA CRUSH-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Siya yung nakakainis na nakakabanas na crush na hindi mo alam na crush mo pala. 

Most of the time sila ay "bully". Uso ang type-of-crush na itey sa Watty Land.

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---------NAGPAKITANG-MULI CRUSH------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Siya yung, ave-looking or below-ave-looking lang na klassmate/kakilala mo noon na pumanget-
-I mean, gumwapo ngayon. Hindi mo siya nakita for soo many years, pero ngayong nagpakita
na siya (at nag-wave pa) parang ewan, undescribable kasi hindi pa naexperience ni author

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----------LOLO or BABY CRUSH -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Ang exage ko. Ang Lolo o Baby crush ay yung crush mo na, awkward para sayo ang age gap.
Halimbawa, professor mo sa isang subject. If girl ka, mas mafeel mo ang awkwardness kapag
iniimagine mong magkatuluyan kayo ng  crush mong mas bata sayo. 

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---------BAWAL NA CRUSH--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Yung taong may KONTING pagtingin ka pero hindi mo talaga aaminin kasi mali. As in mali 
talaga, halimbawa, jowabells ng kapatid mo.

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---------COINCIDENTALLY-THERE NA CRUSH-----------------------------------------------------------------

Siya yung friends-of-friends mo na laging ninanakaw ang iyong paningin. Napansin mong halos
magkasabayan kayong pumasok ng gate sa school isang umaga. Napansin mong kumain siya
sa canteen. at marami pang pagkakataon na nakita mo siya. "He's always there, but not here"
kasi hindi mo pa siya nakakausap ng totoong pag-uusap.

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---------SIYA-NA-SIGURO NA CRUSH-------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Yung feeling mo, meant-to-be kayo. An daming similarities at common likes nyo pero somehow
 hindi kayo pwedi kasi, FEEL mo lang.

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---------ONE-DAY-STAND NA CRUSH------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Sila yung isang beses mo lang makikita. Halimbawa, nakasalubong mo lang sa daan o 
nakasakay mo lang sa jeep. Then the next day/week, nakalimutan mo na siya.

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---------MALANDING BUSINESS CRUSH-------------------------------------------------------------------------

Siya yung AKALA mo may pagtingin rin sayo. Nag-wi-wink siya sayo, ngumingiti ng matamis, 
at nagsasabi ng mga mabulaklaking salita sayo. UPANG bumili ka ng paninda nila (o kung ano
 mang business yan.)

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---------NON-EXISTENT CRUSH--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Sila yung mga characters sa movies, books, mangas, anime, series etc.

(can't describe. I'm still brokenhearted by Levi Heichou. May crush rin ako kay Killua Zoldyck 
wag nyong agawin sila)

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---------UNREQUITED CRUSH-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Very common. Ang pagkacrush mula sa Celebrity crushes to sikat na estudyante, kasama dito.

Nakakaaliw to na nakakastress, depende sa rason o level ng pagtingin.

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---------IT'S-COMPLICATED CRUSH-------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Parang Relationship lang ang tawag eh. haha.  Anyway, siya yung may may crush rin sayo. A 
magic happened at nag-aminan kayo tas date-date pero hindi kayo. tapos ewan na m.u. na
 magulo na maaaring masira ang pagsasamahan na ANG HIRAP MAEKSPLEYN.

It's complicated nga e.

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---------MALANDING CRUSH------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

The Player. Siya yung malanding malande. Mayroong milyones na bilang ng girlprens at gusto 
ang kababaihan. Gusto at hinabol-habol din siya ng kababaihan. Kahit na maraming qualities
 sa kanya na nakaka-"turn off", hindi mo pa ding maiiwasang magkagusto sa kanya kasi
 nahawa ka sa mga taong may crush sa kanya kahit na "he's crushing their hearts"

Yun na lang. Tinatamad na ko.

If you have any suggestions, i-comment mo lang.

Hello

!HI!

*kaway*

*kaway*

Ako si Helen.

Ang blog na itey ay tungkol sa Crush at Crushing.

Btw, I'm always and poreber INACTIVE. Pero, don'cha worry, I'm always somewhere...

spreading words of KALAN-dian